I received your letter this morning, for which I am very, very grateful. I showed your letter to Sr. M. P. as you desired me to. She read it very carefully and made some comments about the time being short now until everything is decided. I hoped so, and this ended the interview.
If you only knew what a relief your letter was. I have been very, very sick since my last interview with Dr. Beaven. It seemed to affect my whole nervous system I have not been able to leave my bed for the past 5 days. I could neither sleep or eat and feel completely run down. In fact I felt abandoned by both God and man. Sr. M. of P. never came into my room to see how I was until I sent for her to day to read the letter but I told some of the older Sisters the action Dr. B. had taken and they were all indignant. Sisters M. Leonard, Berchmans and Agatha, God bless her, were as kind as my own sisters could have been and one of the brightest spots in my life will be the memory of their kindness. I believe they were afraid that it would unhinge my mind. There is no danger of that thank God.
I have feared that the next step will be to order me out. I do not care now as I have the shield of obedience I know he will not stop at anything since he finds that he has been ignored. Sr. M. P. went out this afternoon and said she would not be back before evening. We surmise she may have gone to Springfield. So God knows what the next step will be.
Once more thanking you for your letter. The contents I appreciate highly and hoping to hear from you soon again.